I made the mistake of looking at my Facebook memories this morning. It made me howl with emotional pain. A timeline of events showing the path of where I am now. I saw the person I used to be, the life I used to live. So many moments with people who used to be important to me but are no longer part of my life.
I shared my emotion with my bestie. She reminded me that I'm not a piece of shit human, and let me air my sorrow. She said fuck them. By the time I pulled myself together, she had finished putting the phrase of the day on the board.
"LET'S FIND OUR HAPPINESS AGAIN"
It made me cry but it was exactly what I needed to see. I went to the archive of photos from our ongoing conversation and grabbed her TikTok sketch from yesterday. I love it so much. I cropped the pic, added a filter called 1995 (or 1994, maybe 1996). Then I jacked around with the pic of the board. I hit it with a focal zoom and cut it down. Gave it a bluer hue and added some brightness. Then I turned it into a Polaroid picture added it to her sketch. I finished it with the sketchy looking frame. I loved the result and sent to to her. She loved it too but said it was missing one thing. It needed socially isolated butterflies.
She was right. The butterflies tied it all together and added depth. This is about the most mixed up media digital collage collaboration, and I love it. A collaboration on top of a collaboration. So much art. So much pretty. We make beautiful art together. I am so grateful for Lea Bowden to collaborate and share experiences with. I wouldn't give up what I have with her for any of those people from my past. She is a friend deserving of my friendship. A rare jewel of a human like myself. So next year when these memories come back, I will focus on this. Right now. This moment when my best friend nudged me to find my happiness again.
Love Life.
Be Art.
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